And I wish that I could find a key to unlock all the things that you want us to be. Let me open up and start again, but there’s a safe around my heart. I don’t know how to let you in, and that’s what keeps us apart, and that’s why I need time. I said I need you to understand.
The boys were out of town for a game against St. Louis so I decided to stay back and clean up Brent's place. It's not like it was dirty, but, it needed to be done. Plus it gave me some alone time. I needed it.
Jon ended up being okay. He was discharged from the hospital later that night, Brent wasn't drugged, he just caught a fever from - err - kissing Jon. Who decided to not tell us he was sick. That was typical of him, Mr. I won't tell anyone anything cause I'm a stubborn pain in the ass.
I ordered myself some Chinese food while I waited for the game to start. I was exhausted. I cleaned his apartment top to bottom. If I knew any better, I would've put it up for auction for a goddamn museum.
The buzzer went for the door and I rang the person up, seconds later there was a furious knock on the door. As I swung it open, I saw Taylor on the other side. She had no colour to her face, and she looked lifeless.
"Taylor, what's going on?"
"I'm ... Pregnant."
My mouth dropped, "What?"
"I just found out this morning."
Before I could respond the buzzer went again. I rang up the delivery boy, paid him and took my bag into the kitchen. Taylor sat on the couch staring at her engagement ring.
"Taylor, I don't think Duncan is gunna be mad. He loves you. You've been together for 7 years." I tried to lighten her spirits. It wasn't working. I sighed and dug into my food.
"It's just too soon. I got a promotion at work last week, now I'm gunna have to give it up in 9 months."
"I think your health and your baby is more important than work. Plus, it's not a burden to have a baby. They'll understand."
A smile peered on her lips, "I'm kinda happy in a sense though. I've always wanted a baby with Dunc, I just didn't expect it this soon."
"Well, I think you'll be great parents. I'm sure Duncs will be happy."
I finished up my dinner and we watched the game. Cheering our boys on while probably pissing the neighbors off. The boys won by a landslide of 6-2, pushing them into 2nd in the western conference. After the game I headed to bed, I couldn't keep my eyes open any longer.
I stirred in my sleep, slitting one eye open. It was Brent. He was in his game day suit as I saw his suitcase beside him. The clock read 3:45am. They must've left right after the game.
"Hey." I croaked.
I closed my heavy eyelids as Brent got settled into bed. His arm found its normal spot around my waist as I snuggled against his bare chest. Falling asleep to the steady beat of his heart.
The next morning I was sitting in the kitchen eating breakfast as Brent trudged towards the coffee pot. My mind was racing since last night. I couldn't figure out why. It was keeping me quiet.
"Brent, can I tell you something? That you can't tell my brother?"
"Sure, babe, what is it?"
"Taylor's pregnant." I confessed as I looked right into his widened eyes.
"Wow, that's ... wow."
"I know. My exact response." I miserly responded pushing my plate from me.
"Babe, what's wrong?"
"I don't know. It just seems like everyone is moving forward. Patrick and Abby are getting married in July, so is Hoss, Dunc's engaged with a baby on the way. I just can't help but feel jealous."
He sighed and pushed my hair away from my neck, "Ally. We just got engaged. You're 22, I'm 24. We need to take this slow. We need to make it right."
"Yeah, but, I kinda want a baby."
"Ally, no way. That's just a big no-no. That is not in the cards for us right now."
I huffed, "But what if it happens accidentally?"
"Why would it? We're careful." I just shrugged and didn't look over at him, "You better not pull any shit with your birth control to make it happen. I swear to god I'll put off this engagment if you do that."
I froze, he was being cold right now, "Okay fine, we won't have kids for a long time then."
"Good. Don't scare me with that shit. I don't want to hear one word about this for another year or two." He replied before he headed back into the room to get ready for practice.
I smacked myself in the head. Why did I want a baby all of a sudden? Why did I want to get married all of a sudden? Why was I being such a selfish spoiled little snob?
Oh right, I wanted everything everyone else had.