I'll leave you behind, it's not the first time that we've been through this. It happens every time, you hear the sound of my name, at the top of their lungs. This dumb game you play isn't fooling anyone. Are you catching my drift yet? Now that we have said goodbye, don't try and fix it up again. It's my fault that you can't stand a thing I do. Just tell me why it's so hard for you to be wrong for once in your life ..
Jon took me back to his hotel room. Not one word escaped my mouth. My eyes were so gone, I had to keep blinking to set myself back into reality. Somewhere I didn't want to be right now was reality.
"Do you want to talk about it?"
I looked up at Jon and shook my head, "No, I think I should go."
"Don't go, please. I haven't seen you since September."
"So, have you met anyone?" I asked.
"No, but I do like someone."
"Jon..." I started, I knew he meant me. "Why are you wasting your time?"
"You think I'm wasting time?"
"Yeah I do."
He smirked before he placed a lock of my hair behind my ear. That constant pain I felt was slowly going away.
"Well, Alyssa, you're crazy. I'm not giving up on you yet."
He called me by my full name. Not even my brother did that. I kinda liked it. "Jon, I don't know. I mean with what happened with .. him."
"He left you, Ally. Why can't you see that? Why wait around for someone who caused you this much pain? If anything, you're the one wasting your time."
Like a puck to the face, it woke me up. It was shocking what he just said. I really wanted to move on from Brent. I mean, my depression these past months was all his doing. While he was off falling in love with someone else.
"I won't do that to you, I can't imagine hurting you." he whispered into my ear.
His dark eyes connected to mine as I slowly turned my head towards him. His hand brushed my cheek before his lips tenderly pressed into mine. I had kissed him before but this felt different for some reason. I broke away from his lips and stood up abruptly.
"Ally, don't go, please"
My hand gripped tighter onto the doorknob. Tears stinging my eyes yet again. My heart was screaming at me to let him in. I kinda needed him. He made the emptiness in my chest go away.
"I can't love you, it's too soon."
Then his hands were placed on my shoulders. "Maybe you need to learn to love me. Please let me in. You're only causing yourself more harm closing me out."
I was too tired to fight with him right now. "Jon, this won't be easy."
"I think I can handle it."
I felt myself smiling. Something I haven't felt in forever. Jon led me back over to his bed, our fingers laced together. He gave me a shirt to sleep in, and I pulled it over my head. He went and had a quick shower so I just lied in his bed.
Seconds later my phone vibrated. It was from my brother.
"I'm sorry about Brent, we all tried to stop him from dating this new girl. I wasn't expecting this would happen."
"Don't worry about it. You were right about Jon. I feel alive, Dunc. For the first time in months."
"Are you with him right now?"
"Yeah, don't worry I'm just sleeping here. I'm not going to make a mistake."
"I trust you. Jon will treat you right. I'm sorry about Brent ..."
"Stop being sorry, he caused all my suffering."
"Just focus on what you have with Jon. I see how happy he makes you. Breakfast tomorrow? Around 10? We leave at noon."
"Sounds good :) Goodnight duncs."
As I put my phone on the nightstand table, the bathroom door opened and Jon crawled in the bed beside me. His skin was still radiating from the hot water in the shower. His hair was still a little wet too. He pulled me as close as possible to his chest. I took his lips into another kiss before I rested my head on his bare chest and had my first nightmare-free sleep since he left in the summer.