Thursday, June 10, 2010

chapter nine ;

She won. We lost it all, the love is gone. You couldn't keep your hands to yourself. I feel like our world's been infected. Somehow you left me neglected. I know you're sorry, but you chose lust when you deceived me. Babe, you lost me.

The month of June faded by me faster than I thought was possible. It was the same routine for me. Work, be with my brother, spend the night with Brent. It was working fine, it just .. felt empty.

I had a text from Gina after I got off work, and she wanted me to come over to her and Steph's apartment. I got into my Jetta and got there as soon as I could. The door rings as I pull my hair up into a pony tail. Gina opens it, her face doesn't look warming. I grow worried as she tells me to head into the dining room.

"Ally, this is serious, sit down."

I put my bag on the floor, my hearts in my throat. Christina, Gabby and Steph are sitting on the couch. I can feel my eyes filling up with tears. They weren't normally like this. I was growing terrified.

"What the fuck is going on?" I spat out after another moment of silence.

Gina sighs as she sits down at the table beside me. Her blue eyes turn a deep shape as our eyes meet. "Ally, there's no proper way to tell you this, but .."

"Oh my god, Brent's cheating on you!" Gabby yelled standing up from the couch.

I didn't know if I wanted to run, cry, or scream. My heart was in a massive lump in my throat. My blood was thundering in my ears. There was just no way, he couldn't do that to me.

"How .. wait .. how do you know?"

"Annabelle never left. She's been staying in a hotel, seeing Brent when you're not around." Gina replied. "I'm sorry, but Steeger told us everything."

"He can't let her go." Christina added as she got off the couch too. "No one can figure out why"

I lowered my head into my hands and began to sob hysterically. My heart was shattering faster than I could keep up with. She was like some sick disease that needed to get away from him. I feel someone's hands on my shoulders as another heap of sobs come out of me. My breath was hyperventilating and my lungs were stabbing at my rib cage.

"I'm gunna fucking kill him." I screamed getting off the chair, and pacing around.

"Ally, calm down, you just need to talk to him first. Make sure Steeger isn't emphasizing this. You know what he's like." Steph answered.

My hands were balled into fists at my sides, I couldn't hold in my heartbreak yet again. I collapsed onto the floor in another heap of tears. Steph crawled over and hugged me till I stopped my tears. I wiped my eyes and grabbed my purse. The entire room was silent, all their eyes were glazed with worry as they watched my every move.

"I think .. I need to go for a drive."

"Do you want us to come?"

"No."

I slammed the door behind me and went down to my car. I blasted Led Zeppelin as I sped to the one place I wanted to be at right now. Brent's house.

I stomped up the stairs, knocked furiously on the door to the point my knuckles were red. There was no answer. I gave up and walked right in. The house was really quiet. Then I heard noises coming from the kitchen. I drew in a sharp breath as I headed towards him. As I walked in, he had some innocent smile on his face. I swear to god if I didn't know what was going on, I would've fallen for it.

"Hey baby," He said coming closer to me.

"Don't baby me." I snapped taking a step back.

"What's wrong?"

I slapped him right across the face. It could be heard in the entire house. His skin began to tingle a pink tone and my hand was pulsing. I never knew I had the strength in me to do that. I glared at him as my rage was boiling right through me.

"The fuck do you think is wrong?" I screamed. "You're fucking Elle behind my back."

His eyes fell to his feet. His hand was brought up to the side of his face. "Oh ... you found out."

"What kinda question is that? How long did you think you could keep this up for?"

"IT'S NOT LIKE THAT!" he yelled at me. "She needed help, and I was talking to her, going to her meetings with her. She needed somebody."

"BUT SHE RUINED WHAT YOU TWO HAD! How can you bother helping someone like her! She cheated on you!"

He didn't even say anything. His bright eyes just stared at my face. I shook my head and started to walk away from him. He followed. His hand reached out and grabbed my arm. I didn't know what rush went through me, but I spun around and pinned him against the wall. His eyes grew wide, I had him cornered and he couldn't push me off.

"You really blew it, Brent. I was completely in love with you. You've made me feel more alive in the last month than I have in a really long time. We're done here." I confessed as a single tear slid down my cheek.

His hand reached up and wiped it away. There was that spell again. My skin was burning as I dug into my lip with my teeth. But I was shot to reality. I took a step back from him, not even daring to look at his face. Cause for all I knew, I'd cave. He's too beautiful to stay frustrated at. No matter how much he drove me crazy, he was so complicated, and intoxicating. But, I needed to walk away.

2 comments:

  1. INTENSE!!! Do I sense Steeger having a crush?? A-M-A-Z-I-N-G update!!! I love it

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  2. oooh!! wow!!! brent?! i believe him though.. great post!

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